it just takes a mindset shift
Happy Wednesday friends!
It is officially November (I mean I’m a day late it’s already Nov. 2 oops). Did you know that November 1st is one of my favorite days of the year?! It is finally Christmas season. The weather is crisp & chilly. Cozy by the fireplace rom-coms, this is the best season. Hope your November is off to a good start.
This morning I climbed into my car feeling oh so rested from 5 hours of sleep. I turned on my car to a nearly empty gas tank and a new check engine light. An awful moment of defeat washed over me & I felt like I had been juggling & holding all the things together so well and this made everything spill over. It’s funny how sometimes those little things push you over the edge. I wanted to stop & cry & feel pity that I am doing too many things & am not equipped for this. I was running a little late & knew my only option was to push through to the next thing. I only allowed myself the satisfaction of a few tears on my drive. I headed off to work hoping I had enough gas to get there & the engine light way nothing too serious & could be pushed off a day or 2.
Late night & early mornings doing homework, long workdays, full but happy days with friends, too much stress running, not enough protein, & probably too much coffee. Family & friends & church & school & work & nannying & remembering to eat & shower - it’s a lot.
The next moment I held still was on my lunch break while I tried to remember to eat fitting in as much homework as I could on my 30 minutes. In the middle of my assignment I realized how thoroughly blessed I am. I was working on a human ethics assignment about providing resources to an individual needing stable housing & job opportunities. I am so thankful for rich friendships, a wonderful job, education at my fingertips, housing with 3 sweet roommates, a dog to take care of, & taking joy in these responsibilities. My days are oh so full, but I am thankful to pause & reflect on how blessed I am especially in this overflowing season. There is a time & place for rest, while also joy that we have a Savior that fills us with energy to glorify Him. So I stopped. I sat in the lunch room knowing my precious 30 minutes were ticking away. I paused to pray for a mindset change to look at the joy instead of feeling overwhelmed & you wouldn’t believe how much the afternoon turned around.